Aged 62, a man enters a hospital after an episode first thing in the morning. He had woken up
feeling like death and not in the sense that he had experienced as a student. This felt different. He
had completely lost the ability to maintain the comfort of a single breath and after a period of
around 5 minutes he had managed to reach for the phone to call the emergency services. Having
been stabilised, he receives the advice to go and seek an oncologist. This is the nicest possible way in
which one can conceive of being told the news that one has cancer.
Despite his fascination and constant thoughts about death, almost only ever existing in the form of
fear and very rarely satisfaction, he was now faced with the inevitable truth that he indeed must die.
And so he wonders where his infallibility went and what he did whilst feeling it.
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feeling like death and not in the sense that he had experienced as a student. This felt different. He
had completely lost the ability to maintain the comfort of a single breath and after a period of
around 5 minutes he had managed to reach for the phone to call the emergency services. Having
been stabilised, he receives the advice to go and seek an oncologist. This is the nicest possible way in
which one can conceive of being told the news that one has cancer.
Despite his fascination and constant thoughts about death, almost only ever existing in the form of
fear and very rarely satisfaction, he was now faced with the inevitable truth that he indeed must die.
And so he wonders where his infallibility went and what he did whilst feeling it.
